You know people are so cowerds... but some how thay have the guts to say 'I'm a nigger' on my back...I dont know if that hurts me more or do i feel sorry for them. Perhaps bit of both. I didn't ask them to watch me or see me let alone judge me...Heck! I'm not even black...I'm Indian (from INDIA)god danm it!!!!! Makes me sooo mad. People like that ruin white people for me...So here I am tired bored and very agravated. I want to be where no one can judge me ... is that too much to ask.. who am I kidding...

Now where ever i go to I will always be different. Perhaps I like it that way or perhaps Lonelyness is my only friend. None the less I dont hate them for calling me a nigger. Just pitty theme for their stupidity. For thinking black and white is 'it'. My eyes are soo tired. i could prolly sleep now... but I'm in middle of school, doing that wont help my case. A guy just told me this... about the nigger thing.... I just laughed it over with my friends but I never expressed my true feelings... i guess i'm just like that. Showing my true feeling means nothing no one... so whats the point, every one is worried about their own life and could careless about others... Some times I wish I never should have come to Canada being here means nothing but... pain, stress and agravation...but Icant go back to India... So that leaves me with one thing... i wont even say what.. cuz you'll figure out when say the next bit...

Know whats strange I actully tryed to kill my self... using my Chemestry set. I drank one of the thing that said it was poisen. I put it on a gronnala bar. GOD Danm it all it did was make me throw up for three fucking hours! and put me off gronalla bars for life! So some one want to show me a light plz i invite you...

- Reena